Don't Know Much About Amanda

Socially Awkward

2011-02-13T10:42:00.000-08:00

Communication. It's important. I'm not good at it. You aren't good at it. Thus, we are all not good at it.

sensitivity

2011-02-01T09:09:00.001-08:00

My heart is too sensitive for this.

Germany.

2011-01-27T08:18:00.000-08:00

Yeah.

She doesn't like me.

It may be related to the fact that we grew up differently, but this is going to be a challenge.

Germany

2011-01-22T04:22:00.000-08:00

So I'll be in Germany for the next four months, so read up on this if you want to check into what I am doing.

http://amandavisitstheworld.blogspot.com/

I am leaving here, for there, and you I may miss most!

2011-01-08T15:02:00.001-08:00

St. Catharine College has been my home for a few years now. I am leaving soon to head off to Germany. I will never be able to explain what Brittini and Lana have meant to me this fall semester. Fall 2010, you were fun, but Spring 2011 is ready to challenge you.

I can't even begin to describe how happy my life is right now

2010-12-30T13:08:00.000-08:00

It may have something to do with one of the following things: I just returned from a visit to Colorado, I spent some alone time with a great friend last night, I am going to be in Germany in less than a month, I made cookies today, I have a Mac now (which I love for the same reason I love my iPhone... it is a link to my favorite people), I have a God who is bigger than me, I have a best friend I can't imagine being without, I will graduate college in one year, Pandora Radio Exists, you, the drive to Hotlanta is tomorrow, I was able to play board games last night, I feel healthy, I feel great, I love someone, I miss someone, I like myself, I have challenges in my life, I don't live in Germany in 1943, I have cranberry juice, I got the word dragon last night, the grin on your face, the sleep I'll get tomorrow, the silly jokes that will come from friends, thinking about the future, and above all else, I get to exist in the same world as this picture...

I also am a fan of these pictures...

.That reminds me of life in Colorado.

.And this remind me of what Kentucky is becoming.

...For all three of us...

Colorado, I miss you.

2010-09-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine. Basically family, scratch that, family, sent me a ton of pictures this weekend.

Why is my heart pulled in two directions.
I want to go home.

For a visit. To stay. I miss being among Coloradans. Is that the word? I don't know, but I'm using it.

Family, Cousins, children who are quickly getting bigger.
It's been two years.

College, are you worth it?

Why did I read the sports section today?

2010-09-03T09:11:00.000-07:00

You influence my life from the sidelines...

Reading Numbers today.

Will you look back on this one?

2010-08-31T15:35:00.000-07:00

Amanda,

Remember this time in your life. You've been here before. You re busy with the things of school and life, you have the things of life you want to do, then there is the one piece of life that causes you to make country music your music of choice for a time being. Is it worth it? What can you do this side of life with Jesus to prepare and care for what is to come.

P.S. I love you, even if your head is in the clouds at current!

Really, Moses!?

2010-08-30T05:39:00.000-07:00

God is obviously a carnivore. All throughout the Old Testament he wants burnt meat offerings because the aroma is pleasing!

Also, my two good friends from Campbellsville came for a visit yesterday. That was an honest highlight of my life. Also, internship starts September... Nervous excited!

Early Edition

2010-08-26T11:26:00.001-07:00

So, I was looking through my old blog posts and I came across something devious!

It was a blog post from freshman year. It was simply entitled "I love this song."

Might I point out that I do NOT love that song, nor did I love that song back then... did I?

I truly don't think I liked that song, but then again, maybe I did.

I have been using a tumblr account lately... amandacunningham.tumblr.com... mainly because I can work my Tumblr from my iPhone.... but I think I am going to go back to my original more often. Blogger is just better.... you know?

What is up in the world of A EM A EN DEE A (question mark)

Currently I am reading through the bible in 90 days. There are about 20 other people doing this as well. Today was the fourth day and we finished GENESIS. There is a facebook group as well which is nice because it keeps us accountable.

A few of my friends from Crossing are going to come up and go to church with me this Sunday. They all go to Campbellsville.

I just spent some great time with Lovely T. She is one of my four be eff effs. It was a boot scootin good time.

I have been sitting at this desk for almost five hours for my R.A. responsibilities.

I should put a picture here to make this more interesting for you readers. (Sara. Tay.)

!I still want this bike!

It's made by Puma and it folds in half!

It also comes in funky colors...

...that one is pink, but I like it in MINT...

If you order it correctly, you can also get cool bags that hang on it.
Guess how much it costs...

For real..... guess

Fine, I'll tell you...

$970... down from $1500

Can anyone spare $955.63?

2010-07-10T10:29:00.000-07:00

So I am at a McDonalds with twelve of my newest best friends and family! I realized today I never want to eat fast food again, but I do want to enjoy meals with these people for the rest of eternity! I love what a bond there is when you know a group of people are all rooting for Christ the same way you are.

Christians, we have eternity together, we are family. We are here to help each other. I will help any of you the way I know u would help my sister if she were to call. I love you. I just feel that right now!

Training week

2010-06-03T05:25:00.001-07:00

Never did I think I would be a certified lifeguard... But here I am, a week into training, and I AM a lifeguard and I am about to be waterfront certified. Within the week I will be certified to run a rock wall...

This is so awesome... Thank you God.

2010-05-20T19:55:00.000-07:00

So, maybe I have a plan for graduation.

I have 71 credits now, and I need 120 total to graduate, thus I need 49 more to graduate. I will take 18 in the fall which will bring me to 89. Next spring I will be abroad which will be 12 credits and bring me to 101. That summer I hope to stay in town, or go to another town and get a library job, but also I hope to take at least one summer course... Maybe online, to bring me to 104. Then, that fall... I will only need 16 credits to graduate. Hopefully that'll make me a 3 1/2 year, December graduate in my undergrad, and I wil apply to the university of kentucky's school of library and information science where I will take 36 hours to graduate with a Master's degree in Library Science. That's a mainly oine graduate program that I mau have to go out of state, you know... For my sanity, and take! In the spring of 2013, I will be a graduate, free to embark on the for real world! Then... I go home!
Of course... That's just the bones of the structure!

2010-05-18T13:35:00.001-07:00

awkwardfamilyphotos.com

go there!

Embrace it!

So here's the deal

2010-05-11T08:34:00.001-07:00

On mother's day, Mom and I made a deal about buying me a car.

In one year from now,

How ever much money I save, Mom will match half; up to $3000.

So I am on a mission to save at least... $6000. Is it possible in one year? We will surely find out!

Rain, I'm in college

2010-05-03T06:57:00.000-07:00

.So it rained yesterday.

.All these girls had fun.

.The pink is my legs.

!I had a Greeeat time!

!and I'd prolly do it again!

Walter, He speaks!

2010-05-03T06:55:00.000-07:00

This is good!

So I am lying in my bed, the night before I am to go on my second field trip to visit the homeless ministry, and I am thinking, praying, and debating with God. I was having some confusing issues going on in my head. I told God, I said, “Sometimes it seems like it would be easier to just turn away from you and blend in with the rest of the world.” I told him it was getting harder and harder to stay connected with him when so many people don’t have the same beliefs. I told him that since my life was so comfortable I didn’t think it would change much if I turned away from him. I said I didn’t want to feel this way, but that I also didn’t want to be a false witness and walk around pretending to think one way when my actions or thoughts were pushing me in another direction.

Well, I woke up the next day and decided to just live the day in love for the people I was going to get to see. I was very excited to get to go back and fellowship with the homeless residents in Lexington. We spent the morning at a center for disabled people. We were able to tour the building where they do art and have jobs making boxes and preparing food. That place was wonderful. It was called “Employment Solutions”, and I felt very comfortable there. When we were outside, our purpose was to help do some work in their “hoop house”. I think I have gathered that that is a fancy way to speak about the green house. I also was able to help with the compost heap. There were tons of breaking down onions that smelt really bad, but to me it also smelt like success!

Later we took all of our supplies over to the Preakness. I had been collecting clothing on my hall for about three weeks. We had loads of clothes. The rest of the class also brought all the supplies for a rockin’ cook out. We even brought corn hole. (For those of you who are unaware… corn hole is a strange Kentucky game that is kind of addicting and not something I am at all good at.) I was happy to see on of the ladies from my very first trip to Lexington there. She has a wonderful story. I won’t type it out here, but let’s just say the Catholic Action center is really doing right by her. I sat with her and went through 5 bags, piece by piece; to find all the clothing and toiletries she wanted. I had to convince her that she could take more, but I really did want her to have whatever she needed. That’s why we brought the things there.

So this is where I get my encouragement for the day. A man who went by the name of Walter was sitting with me at lunch. He was about 50 or 60 and you could just tell he had a love for Christ. He asked me a little about my school and my life, but mostly he was talking to the table. When the leadership noticed that the tables were mostly segregated by school students and residents they mixed us up and Walter had to leave my table. I was sad, but happy that some of the students in my class were mingling better.

When the meal was over and everyone started cleaning up I was the last person eating. Walter came over and sat by me. This is where he changed my thinking. He asked me about my family. Then he said, “God has been speaking about you to me all day. I have been trying to resist talking to you because God has never spoken to me about someone so young before, but when God asks, all we can do is be obedient.” He continued by saying that he knew I was going to be in heaven and that God wanted me to know he loved me. He said I was worrying too much about that and not to worry. He also said that there was a big plan for my life. He said he didn’t know if it was for when I was 30 or 40 or what, but that I didn’t need to worry about failing. He said he knew I was going to worry, but that he knew I was going to succeed. He kept talking to me for about 30 minutes. I didn’t say much, because I was so pulled in by what he was saying. I was just thinking, “God, just when I am worrying the most about what you want from me, you pull this man over and speak to me through him.” It was wonderful, because how else would this man know just what I needed to hear that day. I know it seems sort of like the typical, “God has a plan for you r life…. Blah blah blah.”, but it was different. You couldn’t see his eyes. I don’t even remember everything, but I remember thinking, “On a class trip, where we are supposed to impact the lives of these people, life, real life… meets me with grace!”

Okay, I just wanted this in writing so I wouldn’t forget Walter. My new friend, who is praying each night for me! The truth will always pull me back in.

I am quickly starting to hate being here...

2010-04-25T10:01:00.000-07:00

at school that is.

I have few friends, and the ones I do have all think less of me than I do of them.
Maybe it just seems that way, but it is hard to tell is this crazy mixed up world we live in.

When I have been at church lately and speaking with God, I have been asking Him what I should do. We are people built for relationships with other people. What should I do when I can't find that any where I go? When it seems that you are having the same emotional problems everywhere you wonder if the problem is with yourself. A friend of mine, on of the few I find myself spilling my guts to every time I see, told me that we should all have a Barnabas, a Paul, and a Timothy. Someone to pour truth into us, someone to be our equal whom we chew these things over with, and someone to pour truth into. I have a Barnabas... a few Barnabuses, and I have some Timothy in my life, but where is Paul. Some of the people I think are Paul, are in actuality, probably Barnabuses. I think my main problem is that I don't have someone I could call, or write, or text, or facebook, or whatever form of communication you see fit, and talk about the real things with. I am going through a lot. We all are. The world is full of people going through a lot, but I don't have someone who cares about the little things I am going through, who can say, Yes, Amanda... we all have sin in our lives, but I am here not leaving your side, okay with the fact that you are just a little bit strange, and a little bit nerdy, and a little bit not ... well you know. I don't have someone who cares about me as much as I care about them who is close by. Some may try, but it takes the right person. A friend suggested i transfer schools... would that be moving the issue to a different place? I mean, because this is where my life has always been. In this broken place.

This brings me to another point. Something I was discussing with God this morning. It is hard for me to always put my faith in Him, because I can't think of a time in my life when someone hasn't let me down. Now... is it possible for people, fully human, fully sinful, to not let me down? I don't have the answer to that. In my mind, there are people I would do my absolute best to never let down. People I care so much about, that they should and I think do, know that my only goal within that relationship is to make sure they are okay. That I will try my hardest to be sure that I am being a true friend to them. The problem comes in when I can't feel the same from them. Again, in bible study a few weeks ago we discussed the idea of the relationship people have with God is directly related to the relationship they have with their father. Well... as far as my father is concerned... enough said.

So, to sum up my life in a nut shell. I know the answer is to lean on Christ. I know this, because every time I have, He has come through for me, but it is hard. I am going to lean toward Him and ask him what to do. Maybe I may have to transfer. I just can't stand being alone for much longer.

I cry a little when I see those pictures...

2010-03-15T20:32:00.000-07:00

The pictures of my family in Colorado...

I don't know what other students are talking about when they miss their families deeply, that is until I think about my extended family who could have been an extra sister and two... three brothers. The people you think about a wedding, a funeral, a graduation, and the idea of them not being there never even crosses your mind. The family that makes you hate that we don't have transportation that will get you half way across the country in 2.5 seconds.

Why do the kids have to grow so quickly. Why do both of our lives still go on when the other isn't around. We should be able to stop time until we meet again...

What is there to do other than hope for quick recall when you are back togehter.
Family doesn't drift the same way friends do....

Right?

cause I had the time of my life, and I owe it all to you.

2010-03-06T07:53:00.000-08:00

Last night was a dream come true.

I was invited by members of the softball game to come to a dance designed for people with special needs in the area.

It was wonderful. I had such a great time. It felt as if I were at a Cru. dance.

When I would look around I saw people, beautiful people, dancing with no care what they looked like. Letting loose without worry. Do I have that kind of freedom. The freedom to dance. I do, but only when I know I am safe. How wonderful it would be to know I am always safe. My father in heaven always has me safely. I don't have to worry what other people think of me. What does it take to keep that knowledge in my mind all the time?

The entire gym was dancing and singing. "It's a quarter after one..."

It was just splendid.

Not the typical dances at my school when I have to leave when the number of drunken people is greater than the number of sober people.

I loved it.

It was in my throat... then it was in a bowl

2010-02-16T07:51:00.000-08:00

.I had a snow day yesterday.

Some girls on y hall and I pushed our feet through the ends of trash bags, and went down a hill on our butts. I have to say, I love the ghettoness of anything fun done in a dorm. Mattress surfing freshman year... I have nostalgic feelings of you at current!

.Today I have a practice for a readers theatre.

.Tomorrow I start my "lent".

.I have strict formulas for when I am going to text you next time.

It's your turn.

Amanda... I just want to be sure you know that that is LAME.

DO you know?

Yes...

okay, we can move on.

... I started writing this this morning and had every intention of finishing now, but six hours later and I never finish the random blogs I started... this truly does have to be a heat of the moment type of thing.

I go The Time Traveler's Wife the novel in the mail today. I am reading it and thus would rather read words that type them.

See you later!

So there's this guy...

2010-01-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

I cheered a double header last night.

We arrived at five thirty, and cheered through 10:30.

You know. Basketball is tough.

Cheerleaders jump around for five hours,

cheer through both games,

lift humans in the air,

some of us flip,

we all stand and shake,

we dance...

Cheering is tough too.

Last night was against Georgetown.

The girls lost.

The fandom was pretty uneventful.

The guys game started....

The fans started rolling in.

The body paint was intense.

First the girls with painted t shirts came in.

Then the P-A-T-S group came in.

It is pronounced "pates"...

just sayin.

Those guys were entertaining.

T was having a good time.

By the time there was a minute on the scoreboard we were down

by two or three.

someone scored on out team to tie the game.

That left 5.8 seconds on the clock.

The guts held them off for those seconds.

Five minutes of overtime and the crowd is roaring.

We play.

Throw a lot of threes,

and win the game.

My knees were ready to give out.

I loved it.

The last five minutes of a game are my favorite.

That is when the heart comes out.

Like the only five minutes of a Kentucky game I have see.

Last Tuesday against South Carolina!

The irony.

Any way.

I think that's all.

What a nerd, Amanda!

2010-01-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

I sat down to eat with someone today, and they actually picked up their things and went someplace else. Glad I had that effect on you. Shall I let this get me down? Probably nor, but it is semi hard not to.

P.S. I lost my bible. Best day of the year... not, that was an attempt at sarcasm. Let it be known though. If the lord can handle things like creating the entire known and unknown universe, then I am pretty sure that he has my bible losing problem and my push people away from the table under control!

Why I question facebook...

2010-01-17T17:20:00.000-08:00

So currently, I live where I live,

but I didn't always live here.

.I used to live some place else.

There I was part of what I would call

"Average America".

I went to a big high school

1800 or so, you know?

.Then my life went crazy.

.It also sped up rather quickly.

Now I have facebook

and I can look back on all of the people from the past

They are part of a generation that post a picture of every second of their lives

Sometimes I wonder how my life would be different if I had stayed

.If the option had never happened.

if I were more interesting in high school

I wonder what my life would look like

at the end of the day that doesn't matter though

God has a plan for my life

I just need to be sure I am on board that ship as it sails.

Who would I have been? Where would I be? Does it matter?

A friday night...

2010-01-15T16:49:00.000-08:00

We will not be tempted with more than we can handle, but God sure will bring us close to the line. We just need to be sure we rest in Him. I think one thing I didn't take into consideration was that as we prove we are capable of handling things at a certain level, the temptation can be increased. We are to prove we can handle that as well. Do not revert to the time when all you could handle was milk. Stand firm. Chew the steak. Get through the temptation, and stand up for what you believe. Stand on the rock. Stand tall and strong. Amanda, it is time you took some responsibility for who you are. Quit playing in the safe zone. Get out of the shallow end.

I'm watching NCIS, and Ocean's 13 is coming on next. Maybe I shouldn't wast so much time in front of the television tonight. I was reading The Shack earlier. Not through yet, but I don't feel like reading it right now. I almost said I didn't feel like reading, but we all know i am wasting time on facebook and that is most all reading. Okay... here I go. Life abounding.

My other home...

2010-01-15T16:39:00.000-08:00

I miss it a lot today...

...Anyone want to go for a visit with me...

Clearwater Beach Florida, will you be there when I return?

Our God: Chris Tomlin

2010-01-10T13:24:00.000-08:00

These lyrics really spoke to me during the Passion 2010 Conference

!This morning we worshipped the Lord with the words as well!

Our God

Chris Tomlin

Water You turned into wine
Opened the eyes of the blind
There's no one like You
None like You

Into the darkness You shine
Out of the ashes we rise
There's no one like You
None like You

Our God is greater
Our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is healer
Awesome in power
Our God
Our God

And if our God is for us
Then who could ever stop us?
And if our God is with us
Then what can stand against?

Here I stand, with arms high and heart abandoned!

.I am watching Schindler's List.

Laminin: The cross of life which holds us together!

2010-01-09T17:15:00.000-08:00

.I watched the Passion DVD's the other day.

The reason I purchased the DVD's was because i had seen Fruitcake and Ice cream before and I assumed the rest would be good as well.

Turns out I was right, because I was crying all through Indescribable as Louie explained the amazing protein Laminin.

It truly is a blessing in disguise.

If you don't believe me, look it up yourself.

Here is a sneak Peak!

So I met my Brother

2009-12-26T19:42:00.000-08:00

.And I mean for the first time.

His name is Michael... like my dad...

I'm Amanda MICHELLE... like my dad

I guess we have something in common

This is him

.We both have astigmatisms.

.He's pretty cool.

.And he dresses nice also.

.We're going to be good buddies.

.Well you know I'll be the creepy one in the relationship.

it's because I am a female

2009-12-06T06:01:00.000-08:00

.I am an emotional woman right now.

.I feel like my friendships are forced upon other people.

.Sometimes I want to run and scream into the world so I will fit in.

.God grabs me by the suspenders and pulls me back in.

.I just wrote it here no problem, but I never said it was easy.

.I miss Clearwater.

I discovered a new website I like yesterday.

This was on it.

disclaimer: not every things is appropriate.

Maybe that means I shouldn't read it.

.not sure yet.

WWW.CRAZYTHINGSPARENTSSAY.COM

Aaron Shust: My Savior my God

2009-11-30T11:17:00.000-08:00

Speak the truth in love...

2009-11-19T07:44:00.000-08:00

but don't love and forget the truth...

The Lyrics

2009-11-14T07:48:00.001-08:00

I went to my first concert last night

2009-11-13T06:15:00.000-08:00

.It was in Princeton KY, and these guys were there.

They go by "After Edmund"

!They said they were from the future, and their music was awesome!

"Sometimes you trip and fall

Build a mountain on something small

And you know you can’t catch your fall this time

Deep down beneath your bones

Does your heart beat

Is it made of stone

You can’t ignore what you feel inside

Everyone you don’t have to run

You don’t have to find escape and wait for kingdom come

You don’t have to run

No need to hide from grace

Just let love take you away

When life’s a Broadway show

With your best friends on the front row

Do you realize we’ve all read the lines

Stretched thin out in the cold

But love can melt your paper soul

You know we can’t make it on our own "

These guys were there too!

The go by "MikesChair"

The Headliner though was this guy

He goes by LeCrae and he is a rapper!

I was standing pretty close...

You see that... that's me standing next to LeCrae...

.close enough that one of the guys from "After Edmund" was talking to me before he ran on stage.

All that means is that could really feel the music from my spot.

And you know the BEST part?

They're Christians!

!And they LOVE jesus!

.A more open experience.

2009-11-09T11:49:00.000-08:00

I had project reunion this weekend, which means I spent two days in the mountains of Tennessee with some of the people who know the most about me.

I had an awesome time, but project is something I don't think someone who hasn't experienced something like it will ever get. When we get together it is as if it is in another time and place. We aren't in our real lives, but we are someplace we treasure a lot. We aren't with people we see often, but we feel understood. When we get back to the real world it is as if nothing has happened. I love that time. I am with people who understand why I want to spend time alone with God. I am with people who understand why a struggle of my heart is a struggle of my heart. I am with people who don't expect me to just say "Okay", or "Good" after they ask "How are you." They want me to say my semester has been crap and I count down the days until I get through this alive. They love me even if I cry in their arms. I am the least self conscious with them. I am very me. College Campuses aren't the easiest places to live life, but with family and project family, it is much easier.

Oh, I also learned a new game... HORSE with a pool table. I am a little rough, but I like it.

.I'm not in the picture, but that's okay... you know what I look like.

?Don't they look awesome?

And let the envy begin...

2009-11-08T15:47:00.000-08:00

.please stop standing there.

.please stop messing with her, she doesn't get it.

, and Amanda... you need to not go there right now,

Take Rest in God's Love

Creeper

2009-11-01T18:12:00.000-08:00

.I was creeping on facebook earlier.

.I think that means I am lying to myself too.

.Stop it.

H1N1

2009-10-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

.I was Swine Flu for Halloween this year ... check it.

Creeper

2009-10-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

I lied to them all, but at least it's over.

They'll go on believeing it, and I'll go on pretending it's true.

*inspired by a story*

I want to go to Clearwater

2009-10-05T07:30:00.000-07:00

For Real

Tennessee

2009-09-07T14:13:00.000-07:00

I spent the past few days in Tennessee. I was with my project family. Well, many of them were there. Not nearly enough though. First, two of the UK girls picked me up on Friday after dinner. We drove to Nashville and visited our Vandy lady. I love her. More than that, I adore her. A UT Memphis kid drove up too. He's quiet, and I love him too! We stayed awake until 4 in the morning. We just didn't want to go to sleep because we knew that if we went to bed the Memphis kid would have to leave. A friend of ours, a Vandy guy, who we met on project was there too. We met up with him for not long enough, but that's okay. He gave us an interesting tour of the campus. After that we went over to my discipler's house. She is ready to pop out a baby and day now. Her other son is also running around all over the place. We hit the road after that all the way to Knoxville.

Let me tell you that the trip from Nashville to Knoxville is probably the longest ride ever. I was awake, but tired. I was very excited. When we arrived at the right house in Knoxville, I jumped into the arms of 3 of my best mates. After that four others rolled in behind our caravan. That was 10 of us in the same room at the same time. Lovely. We had a great time. There were firs works involved, and a dance club. I still have sharpie marks on my hands. How exciting. I haven't been able to laugh the same since I've been separated from my project friends. I haven't been able to dance, because I felt the atmosphere didn't allow "safe" dancing. I was reconnected with my heart, and I didn't even know it was gone. Since Friday morning when I awake at seven A.M. for my doctor's appointment I have slept a total of 12 hours max. I am tired... and I don't think I can sleep.

Creation Museum

2009-08-31T18:49:00.000-07:00

He will eat your face!

I went to the Creation Museum this past Saturday with a few friends from the college ministry group! It was bundles of fun and I learned a lot. I would like to go back one day. I bring this trip up, because now being two days later I find myself reading my environmental science class assignment, and it turns out we are learning about the creation of the Earth in this section. How awesome. Apparently the Earth was created 4.5 billion years ago. According to scientists. What do I do? The following questions now run through my mind.

1. Why isn't creation one of the "hypotheses" stated for the origin of Earth?
2. Do I have to state on a test that I agree to the Earth being created 4.5 billion years ago?
3. Can't I just suggest a class trip to the Creation Museum?

Tuesday 25 August 2009

2009-08-25T06:02:00.000-07:00

Today I rechecked out the book "The World According to Garp" by John Irving. I checked it out last year, but I never finished the book. Part of the reason I never finished, as ridiculous as this may sound, is because the cover of the book was glued on backwards and upside down, and every time I went to read the book I would get "annoyed" by the flip. Nonetheless, I was a fan of the book when I began reading it and I assume I will continue to enjoy the book. SO, here's to sucking it up and enjoying myself.

Sunday 23 August 2009

2009-08-23T04:31:00.001-07:00

.Post Secret is up today.

I have been reading Post Secret for a few years now. Actually, it has been four years. I think my relationship with the project has changed as much as the project itself. The secrets posted on Sundays are more often sexual than not. I wonder if it's the world weeding its way into the project the same as it has with television commercials.

2009-08-22T17:29:00.000-07:00

Just be careful you don't judge me to harshly!

Tuesday 18 August 2009

2009-08-18T16:56:00.000-07:00

I feel as if i should update my blog, but I never seem to care enough to sit down and do it. I thought about putting pictures of my dorm room up, but who am I that you want to see a bunch of my P-Ride full pictures? Maybe one a year? Let me at least place a fun picture of what happened to my bible whilst I was in Florida. That'll be a fun picture. I will attempt to save this for a better time. Possible when I leave the library and return to my dorm room? Adieau.

I'm going to learn spanish.

I figured something out... about myself and possibly women

2009-08-15T07:15:00.000-07:00

Why guys run/ head up companies more than women.

Women want too much control. Men can hand off 7 different things, and as long as the outcome is okay, they don't necessarily want to know every detail, but,

as a woman I find this to be true of myself,

we women want to know every detail and we want things done a certain way. It would be harder for us to be at the top, because we want to know how every thing is done and we want to be sure it is done a certain way.

This is why I know I couldn't run a company and SUSPECT that other women would have the same problem.

Wednesday 12 August 2009

2009-08-12T17:15:00.000-07:00

The internet used to be more entertaining. . .

I ate at a Mexican restaurant tonight for $3.48.

Sometimes... it w0uld be nice if classes would just start already...

Tuesday 11 August 2009 night time.... late

2009-08-11T19:59:00.000-07:00

Why am I awake at 11 o'clock at night?

Each time I have attempted to hit the "I" key on my keyboard, I have unintentionally hit the "U" key. Sad Story.

I have had R.A. training this week, which I am extremely excited about. I have wanted to be an R.A. since I saw one for the first time on "Boy Meets World". Third best show ever... sort of.

I am not an actual R.A. . . . really. I live on a floor with an R.D., and I am training, but I don't have my own floor. One day though... one day.

My room is still a mess because of this. Also, my light is out again this year, which means I am working off the light in the television. I will have to buy a lamp or something this year.

Today I also took care of some business work. I added a sociology class to my roster, took a picture for an identification tag, and I saw for the first time my official collegiate transcript... unofficially. I have a 3.8 GPA and two B's. It's an okay transcript. I was just sad when a professor told me he knew i could do better in his class. This is likely true. I learned a lot in that class, and I was surprisingly quiet in it, but I didn't do well on the tests. I didn't "study" enough I'm sure.

Well, new year, and new classes means I will have to do it all over again. Luckily I have History of Ideas this semester... for real this time.

Post Script: I now have to have my computer plugged in for it to work. No longer do I have any battery life... Good job Amanda. You really do take care of your things... right?

2009-07-30T13:37:00.000-07:00

The best thing about the afternoon is biking along the beach listening to the soundtrack to Juno...

Thursday 30 July 2009 12:03 AM

2009-07-29T20:59:00.000-07:00

I am a creeper on the Internet.
I need to stop that.

.A friend of mine said the most basic thing to me today.
Who do you follow if you are an X-ian?
Answer: Well that would be EX.
Who do you follow if you are a Christian?
.Answer: That would be Christ.

.I AM A CHRISTIAN.
.Anything else is excess.

Summer project has been awesome. I feel like I am finally starting to see the light. The Lord's timing is so interesting. What if I had been born a year earlier. What if I had advanced? I wouldn't be where I am, and I love where I am for it has been ordained by Christ. Tomorrow, and the next day and the next, I am here as long as He wants me.

Okay. Work tomorrow. I am up at 6:15 AM.
You don't know it, but I am working with your doppelganger.

.service project.

2009-04-26T18:20:00.000-07:00

Paul says in Galatians that James, Peter and John suggest we,"keep on helping the poor."

I went to do a service project the other day and I got something unexpected out of it.

We were cleaning out a crawl space for a family. (Note* This crawl space was referred to as a basement, but I would say it was a crawl space. It was under the house, and you had to go outside to get to it. The entrance was a door that was just six slats of wood. The floor was dirt, and the ceiling was about 5 or 6 feet from the floor.) The space was filled with trash bags of old toys and newspapers dating back to 1996. The trash bags would fall apart as we took them out of the room. Most of the stuff was covered in mold or animal feces. It was obvious that rats had torn through most of the belongings. We were wearing masks, but still had to leave the room when the smell got to be too much. We had two types of gloves to use, because some of the stuff was wet.

What really got to me were the things the family asked us to keep. It reminded me of my past a little. The family continued to ask us to keep certain things that came out of this crawl space. Keep in mind that all of it was covered in rat feces, mold, or something else. We wore gloves to take it out, but they wanted to keep it. What I keep thinking was, to these people this is treasure. Someone asked me why we were keeping this box full of broken glass that was covered in mold. Well for this family, those were their "trinkets" and the fact that the figurine of a ballerina was broken and moldy didn't take away from the value they had for it.

This all reminds me of conversations I would have with friends about some of my possessions as I grew up. Why would someone want to accept a used mattress? "You should never get a used mattress "they" say it's not a good idea." Well, if you don't have the ability to get a mattress, then a used mattress is golden. That person would be so thankful. I knew a family who never ate left overs, EVER. They would even throw out the condiments after each use. Many people would say they were wasteful. (Likely the person who took the mattress would think they were insane) Getting rid of food. What a waste. It is just interesting to see the different levels.

Keep in mind though, that most people believe they are right about what is right. I think hand me downs are fine, I wouldn't and I would keep a vase and fix it with super glue. (Many of you may agree with me, fix a vase no problem, but how many pieces would it have to be broken in for you to fix it? I may say 10, you may say "No, only up to two." Either way, we both think we are right.) People all have different standards. (Left overs are fine, but I would never share a drink with another person) This isn't wrong, we just need to respect the differences. Even if you do not think something is of value, I still believe it is wise to treat anthers property with the same respect as your most prised possession.

Just some food for thought...

Amos says
In chapter two that we not neglect the poor as we attend church and fulfill our religious obligations.

Thursday 9 April 2009

2009-04-09T18:41:00.000-07:00

First and foremost I wanted to speak on the acknowledgement of this being my first Easter. Well, not my first time experiencing Easter, but it is the first time I am celebrating Easter as a believer in Jesus Christ. In the past i would often forget or not even care that Easter is the celebration of the sacrifice Jesus made for you and I on the cross. I haven't even thought about the "Easter Bunny" or eggs this year. I was watching television earlier today and I saw a commercial mentioning Easer Eggs and I thought "Oh yeah, there are bunnies and eggs this time of year." I had completly forgotton about easter eggs. When you find yourself searching for and experiencing truth, it is easy to forget about things of your past. Not that I am saying eggs are a thing of the past for me, I am just saying that who I was before is sometimes foreign to me.

Is this good? Is this bad? I'm not so sure. I don't want to forget my past, because that is a part of me, but I think that I am a different person now. Strengthened in Christ and moving forward.

Sunday

2009-03-15T06:28:00.001-07:00

My dog died.
I'm sad...

Sunday, 8 March 2009

2009-03-08T19:07:00.001-07:00

My mom brought me food, because I am going to be in the dorm room for a week alone with no cafeteria, but I didn't tell her I needed eating utensils! Oops!

Well, thank you face book and, mainly, Leslie, I posted that I had no eating utensils, and Jon and Leslie brought me some. They are so very thoughtful! It's funny though, this morning I used a juice cap as a spoon. Not exactly the easiest.

Thank you, my friends!

Names

2009-02-25T07:19:00.001-08:00

In Kentucky,
more often than not,

if you know a person by a name,

that name is likely their middle,

and not their first,

name.

Strange...

Marvelous Light

2009-02-21T11:51:00.000-08:00

I once was fatherless,
a stranger with no hope;
Your kindness wakened me,
Awakened me, from my sleep

Your love it beckons deeply,
a call to come and die.
By grace now I will come
And take this life, take your life.

Sin has lost it's power,
death has lost it's sting.
From the grave you've risen
VICTORIOUSLY!

Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame.
By the cross you are the truth,
You are the life, you are the way

My dead heart now is beating,
My deepest stains now clean.
Your breath fills up my lungs.
Now I'm free. now I'm free!

Lift my hands and spin around,
See the light that i have found.
Oh the marvelous light
Marvelous light
Lift my hands and spin
See the light within...

I blog a lot

2009-02-19T13:33:00.000-08:00

I made another blog. Check out my profile if you want to read it. Don't check out my profile if you don't want to read it. Either way it exists. Also, do check out Fruitcake and Ice cream.

Do Check out Passion 2010.
Do Check out Expelled.

2009-02-08T06:04:00.000-08:00

I took a speed reading test. Turns out I am a speed reader. Aprox. 636 wpm. Who'd of thought.

"The man who doesn't read good books has no advantage over the man who can't read." ~Mark Twain

Ramble

2009-02-01T05:41:00.000-08:00

I am about to go to the bathroom to get ready for church.
Nothing major has happened in my life, but it has been a long time since I blogged.
I am currently in a state of waiting to hear about ym summer project.
With any hope I will be spending 9 weeks of my summer in Clearwater Beach Florida.

FUN!!

I heard recently that you need two of three things to stay strong in your faith and three of three things to grow. The three things are...

1. A strong female, adult leader in your life.
2. A good solid group, bible study, or something along those lines.
3. One good, solid friend, to be an accountability partner.

My question is, can 1 and 3 be the same person!? *LTM*
I know I have 1, and I am pretty sure one of the 5 different group things I do counts as 2, but what about 3? Can two people count as the one? Do I need to find someone? Should I look for that? Is it possible? Who would i turn to? I know who, but, it's two people. Well, in actuality I go to one for things of this nature, or both.

I think the one thing we left out, the most important, is Jesus Christ, God, the Holy Spirit. There si nothing without love.

2009-01-15T13:41:00.000-08:00

I do say it as been a long time. I am going to leave this open on my computer until I decide to post it for all of you wonderful people who read my blog. You may in turn have to leave it open and come back to reading it later... I do have to consider the option of this not getting to be very long and actually not having to come back at all.

Being as I am about to go Cheer a double header though, I do not think I will finish, because dinner comes in between the two things i am doing.

I had a wonderful Christmas break that I will just highlight here for you because it was just so long and great.

1. I hit a dog with my Uncle's car and now i feel really bad for the dog and the car... ugh.

2. I spent a week with my Uncle which was M*Azing!

3. Family Christmas in Indiana... no fights, enough said.

4. I read Twilight

5. I became and obsessed Twilight fan

5.5 Christmas Eve at the River

6. I went to North Carolina for ENCOUNTER08.

7. Mandy

8. Taylor

9. Jacob

10. New friends From Aaron to Wilson!

10.5 Link ....

11. Sleep

12. Read

13. Television

14. Pack

Non numbered... Many encounters with Jesus Christ. My hero!

Life

Friends

Now i am back at school. I have many commitments, and I do not want to fall behind in school so I have made myself a bed time 11:oo. How weird. I try to stick to it though, unless something better is happening. This is because i wake at 7 every morning for Bible Reading. I am trying to finish in one year. Wish me luck.

Every day classes start at 9:3o. I have Public Speaking, English World Lit Two.

I just got back from the game.. 4 hours later...

I am also in Trig, Tai Chi, Intro Lit, Developmental Psychology

I spent the next day deciding to leave it at this. Who says I have to tell you everything about my life! You may just have to ask me about it!

Translation: I'm too lazy and sore from the game yesterday to write any more!

I met Alexis today

2008-12-06T12:23:00.000-08:00

My aunt had a baby. I met her today, well really it was last night or very early this morning. Her name is Alexis. That's cute. Alexis Renee. What an adorable baby. I am not doing the whole, "she's my family, so she MUST be cute thing." She is in actuality a cute baby. Not very fussy either.

I am going to Illinois this weekend.
I am cheering in a game tonight.
I am rushing to bible study after my game tonight.

I'm trying to stay in school

2008-12-04T07:53:00.000-08:00

My mom went in for a meeting with the school business people, after my meetings weren't getting any where. They were supposed to bring something up that week in a meeting they had. I guess it didn't get done. I came in today to find out what ever happened with the first meeting. Literally no person in that office had any recollection of my mom even coming in. I was like WHOA! okay, I have no idea what's going on. SO I left. told them I would get in touch with my mom to find out who she actually spoke with. I finally got a hold of her. We spoke. She called the people back. Turns out she remembered who she talked to. Turns out they never brought it up in either of the past two meetings. I guess there is a meeting today she just may bring it up in. I am supposed to get in touch with her as early as possible Monday morning. I guess we will just see what happens with Amanda then... til the cows come home! I have lunch to exist in.

Back

2008-12-02T21:02:00.000-08:00

From the holidays. I just thought I should update, but as it is midnight-o-two, I have realized that I am too tired to think of interesting things about myself in my current state of exhaust.

Sleeping will commence.

Yes I ate turkey, yes I went out on Black Friday, yes, I did hear about the horrible trampeling at Wal-Mart.

I have to tell you about it later, because this is just too mu.........ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzz...zz..zz.z.Z..zz

Letterman wrote this about us.

2008-11-24T12:04:00.001-08:00

My aunt emailed me this. Well it was a chain letter forward, which I wouldn't usually do anything with, but here it is. I won't give an opinion though, because that determines how it is read by others. It is a letter from David Letterman.

No matter what your political convictions are this is an eye opener....What a thankless people we are!!!

David Letterman, on President Bush. (Surprising)

David Letterman wrote this; it's the David we don't often see....

'As most of you know I am not a President Bush fan, nor have I ever been, but this is not about Bush, it is about us, as Americans, and it seems to hit the mark.'
'The other day I was reading Newsweek magazine and came across some Poll data I found rather hard to believe. It must be true given the source, right?
The Newsweek poll alleges that 67 percent of Americans are unhappy with the direction the country is headed and 69 percent of the country is unhappy with the performance of the President. In essence 2/3 of the citizenry just ain't happy and want a change. So being the knuckle dragger I am, I started thinking, 'What are we so unhappy about?'

A. Is it that we have electricity and running water 24 hours a day, 7 Days a week?

B. Is our unhappiness the result of having air conditioning in the summer and heating in the winter?
C. Could it be that 95.4 percent of these unhappy folks have a job?

D. Maybe it is the ability to walk into a grocery store at any time and see more food in moments than Darfur has seen in the last year?

E. Maybe it is the ability to drive our cars and trucks from the Pacific Ocean to the Atlantic Ocean without having to present identification papers as we move through each state.
F. Or possibly the hundreds of clean and safe motels we would find along the way that can provide temporary shelter?

G. I guess having thousands of restaurants with varying cuisine from around the world is just not good enough either.

H. Or could it be that when we wreck our car, emergency workers show up and provide services to help all and even send a helicopter to take you to the hospital.

I. Perhaps you are one of the 70 percent of Americans who own a home.
J. You may be upset with knowing that in the unfortunate case of a fire, a group of trained firefighters will appear in moments and use top notch equipment to extinguish the flames thus saving you, your family, and your belongings.

K. Or if, while at home watching one of your many flat screen TVs, a burglar or prowler intrudes, an officer equipped with a gun and a bullet-proof vest will come to defend you and your family against attack or loss.

L. This all in the backdrop of a neighborhood free of bombs or militias raping and pillaging the residents. Neighborhood s where 90% of teenagers own cell phones and computers.

M. How about the complete religious, social and political freedoms we enjoy that are the envy of everyone in the world?

Maybe that is what has 67% of you folks unhappy.

Fact is, we are the largest group of ungrateful, spoiled brats the world has ever seen. No wonder the world loves the U.S. , yet has a great disdain for its citizens. They see us for what we are. The most blessed people in the world who do nothing but complain about what we don't have, and what we hate about the country instead of thanking the good Lord we live here.

I know, I know. What about the president who took us into war and has no plan to get us out? The president who has a measly 31 percent approval rating? Is this the same president who guided the nation in the dark days after 9/11? The president that cut taxes to bring an economy out of recession? Could this be the same guy who has been called every name in the book for succeeding in keeping all the spoiled ungrateful brats safe from terrorist attacks? The commander in chief of an all-volunteer army that is out there defending you and me?
Did you hear how bad the President is on the news or talk show? Did this news affect you so much, make you so unhappy you couldn't take a look around for yourself and see all the good things and be glad? Think about it......are you upset at the President because he actually caused you personal pain OR is it because the 'Media' told you he was failing to kiss your sorry ungrateful behind every day.
Make no mistake about it. The troops in Iraq and Afghanistan have volunteered to serve, and in many cases may have died for your freedom. There is currently no draft in this country. They didn't have to go. They are able to refuse to go and end up with either a ''general'' discharge, an 'other than honorable'' discharge or, worst case scenario, a ''dishonorable' discharge after a few days in the brig.

So why then the flat-out discontentment in the minds of 69 percent of Americans?

Say what you want, but I blame it on the media. If it bleeds it leads and they specialize in bad news. Everybody will watch a car crash with blood and guts. How many will watch kids selling lemonade at the corner? The media knows this and media outlets are for-profit corporations. They offer what sells, and when criticized, try to defend their actions by 'justifying' them in one way or another. Just ask why they tried to allow a murderer like O.J. Simpson to write a book about how he didn't kill his wife, but if he did he would have done it this way......Insane!

Turn off the TV, burn Newsweek, and use the New York Times for the bottom of your bird cage. Then start being grateful for all we have as a country. There is exponentially more good than bad. We are among the most blessed people on Earth and should thank God several times a day, or at least be thankful and appreciative.' 'With hurricanes, tornadoes, fires out of control, mud slides, flooding, severe thunderstorms tearing up the country from one end to another, and with the threat of bird flu and terrorist attacks, 'Are we sure this is a good time to take God out of the Pledge of Allegiance?'
-David Letterman

I miss my family

2008-11-15T04:28:00.002-08:00

I was at Wal-Mart the other day.
Did you know it was already time for Christmas?
It made me miss my Colorado family.
My family.

I miss Christmas how it used to be. I miss everyone getting up together. I miss random strangers being around, but still feeling like I knew them. I miss getting up way early to help make food. I miss making cookies. I miss random trips to Wal-Mart to buy random things we had to have. I miss late night wrapping. I miss pretending I didn't know about Santa. I miss caring that the holidays were approaching. I miss going to a store just to look at ornaments. Now, It's all about making sure i have a gift for the day and request something good for the food. No longer is it about the season. Here it is... the real reason I hate Kentucky. It broke my family apart. For me. Not everyone. I miss my family more than any friend I've ever had. On the bright side, I have probably the easiest person for Secret Santa...

I'm a cheerleader now.

2008-11-15T04:28:00.001-08:00

If you want to know more about it just ask me.

It's official

2008-11-11T07:17:00.001-08:00

I can't register for classes until I pay $1,533.05. Which isn't exactly good news, but I can work with it. It truly isn't the end of the world. I did freak out a little at first. My mom said some how someway we could figure it out. I'm not so sure we are going to be able to though. Perhaps I take a semester off.

I spoke with financial aid. I had been inquiring about work study, and I have been told that there is no longer any for the year, but I heard that someone did request to have me as their work study, so the financial aid office told me they would look into it.

One thing that did kind of bother me was that when I spoke with someone in the business office they stated "Maybe you can ask Dad for some help." I guess Gabby must have asked him in the past, but it was semi awkward to have someone know so much about my personal life and still not know enough. The relationship my sister and I have with my father is very different. I don't feel comfortable asking him for money because he hasn't ever felt like my dad. I guess it is different for her because she has memories of him from when she was young. To me he has always been more of a distant cousin or uncle. How many people ask their distant cousins or uncles to take care of them financially. I guess it isn't really fair of me to put so much responsibility on my mother, but I'm not so sure I can just turn the tables and ask him for money.

I told my mom that if I had to I could just come every other semester. She said it would take me too long to finish and that somehow she wanted me to keep going. I want to keep going, but the more and more I go to school, the more and more realize that no amount of scholarship or loan or grant helps if it doesn't cover your expenses. It's okay, God will take care of me. Everything happens for a reason. I just don't always know the reason.

One thing my mom suggested was going to a public school. She said this because she was baffled that Gabby got money back for her tuition and that I owed so much. I told her it was because Gabby got more of a scholarship for playing a sport. She then said that I had my academic scholarship, well, Mom, academic scholarships don't get as much money as sport scholarships. She says that in a public university I would get it, but what have you. I don't want to go to a public university. I don't want to become a number amongst the people. I don't want a class with 500 people in it. I want my professors to know my name. I like my school. I love my school. I like my friends. I love my professors. Should i play a sport if I want to get an education? People tell me that the sports get money because they are what the donaters care about and see. Sports are what keep a school running. Why is it that academics can't keep a school running? Should I play a sport to staying school. Drop some of my other clubs and responsibilities and make my life about money? God help me, for I know not what to do.

Gabby's suggestion is that I become a cheerleader. I am looking into it. She said that more scholarships are going out next semester. She is going to talk to the coach. I am up for it. The only reason I didn't try out my freshman year of high school is that is was angering Gabby. I didn't care enough to do that, but since this is her idea I am okay with it. Besides, I have been needing to get back into exercising. Maybe this is just what I need.

I still don't really know what i am going to do about registering though. I should be getting some money for the work I do with the Deans, and maybe I can take out another loan. If the work study comes through. IDK. Something will work out. It always does. I have been praying about this one. I think that all i can ask of you, my friends and readers is to pray for me too. I just hope that the students who are in deeper than I can work something out. I don't really want to disappear next semester... that would not make me happy. Possibly tough, whatever i do instead will just be a way to reach out to the rest of the world. Maybe I have to leave the school I love to follow my true path in life.

Sunday 9 November 2008

2008-11-09T13:35:00.000-08:00

The Church had its tenth birthday party this weekend. It was so wonderful to hear the speaker. Something Aires... or something. I will edit this later, maybe, and update that information.

Today, I was so proud to be part of my church. I am so happy to be with brothers and sisters. A man I enjoy at church gave me a hug yesterday and said the church loved me. That made me smile. I try my best to make God proud. It is a start to have his children proud...

I am going to trot to lunch.

This makes fifty!

2008-11-03T21:11:00.000-08:00

This is my fiftieth post.

I am voting tomorrow. I have my mind made up, but tomorrow morning, when I get to the polls, I am going to have to ask God for guidance in the final moments.

I am going to see FIREPROOF with some of my friends. Well, Doug, and most likely Shenanigans, Nick, Carissa, possibly Will, and possibly Tory.

I can not wait! Thank you Doug.
I am not going to see it until Thursday though. I am anxious. I love that it is so real. I have to drive 45 minutes away to get to a theatre that is showing it, so all of you who are in a town with a large enough theatre should check it out. I have read reviews of people saying it saved their marriage.

I know I am lucky for a lot of reasons relating to relationships.

I can not wait to cast my first Presidential ballot.

Bible Study

2008-11-02T22:22:00.000-08:00

I found a use for One Note. I am keeping track of my bible studies. Amazing. I will become an addict.

Microsoft Office One Note

2008-11-02T21:30:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine gave me Microsoft Office student edition. THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I am fascinated by this "One Note" application. I have no real use for it right this second, but I do think it has a LOT of potential for fun!

7 things I hate about you

2008-11-02T16:34:00.000-08:00

I am listening to that song right now, pretending to sing well, and causing Shenanigans to laugh uncontrollably.
I am in a fantastic mood!
It is diabolical.

Save a tree plant a fish. This is apparently my new happy song. No idea why. probably because it comes from Disney.

I like the word awkward. Did you see how I made that "I" really big at the beginning? I was trying to be fun! It didn't work due to my lack of HTML ability. I have to override something I don't want to deal with. So I made it red instead... that's different....right?

I want to listen to Christmas music!

Where to go to school

2008-11-02T06:08:00.000-08:00

I am still looking into where I want to go to library School.

I have to choose an ALA accredited school, or I will basically be performing career suicide... sort of. Many libraries aren't even allowed to hire non-accredited educated librarians. Most of the schools are on the east side of the country. A mass of schools are in the central eastern area, but only one in Kentucky. UK. Don't ask. I have considered the University of Washington. Especially since I have always wanted to go to Washington, and there aren't many other schools in the area. I would like to be in an area where the number of graduating librarians is less that a ton. I considered going back to Colorado. There are two accredited schools there, but I doubt I do that. Funny enough, Hawaii has eight accredited schools. Some of the other states have zero....

Minnesota, where I really want to go, has none. Poo on Minnesota.

I need to take my time

2008-10-29T15:25:00.000-07:00

It's officially infatuation.

Is that allowed?

Amanda, take your time.

I have not forced the issue. It has been a few weeks and I have just told the first person today. I am going to stop that soon...

Don't ask me about this.
I will tell you when I am ready.
Unless you are the one person who is far away that I don't mind asking me anything.
You likely don't know who you are, but likely will assume you are possibly this person.

History of Ideas

2008-10-27T19:48:00.000-07:00

I go to a class on Monday nights. I am not in this class, but anyone is invited to come. The class is a capstone course for the liberal arts degree. {Which is what i am at school studying}. The idea of the class is to get different, seemingly unrelated types of courses related to each other. Different professors present ideas, and students have to reflect on the two presentations. Think Critically about them and report back through a reflection piece.

I am still "hassled" about coming. Told I am "crazy", but I truly enjoy the class. What else am I going to do on a Monday night? I am in school to learn. My brain is a sponge. I don't think of college as a collection of classes I am required to go to. I truly am upset when a class gets cancelled. I love my professors and the work they do for me. I love what we talk about. I chose classes that applied towards my degree, but more than anything I chose classes that were interesting.

I plan on attending this class every time it is offered. The same material will never be presented twice. I want to know. I just want to know. That's it. I don't want to be an expert, I just want to hear interesting ideas. I just want to know.

2008-10-27T19:41:00.000-07:00

I like this song. This video is okay. I have thoughts on this video, but at my current state of life I would rather not share them. Enjoy the video though!

We're not close anymore

2008-10-26T19:31:00.000-07:00

Most likely we will never be again.
I haven't decided if this bothers me yet.

Eh,

it doesn't really matter in life. As long as you and I spend eternity in the right place.

I don't even recognise the things you say any more.

We are strangers floating on a cloud, hoping to wish for the past, but in reality not caring about the future.

Someone I respect reads my blog

2008-10-26T16:28:00.000-07:00

Do you ever see people and right away recognize that you respect them?
A professor on campus is that for me. She teaches... some sort of English class. I think foundation classes. at least that is what I was told, because I remember hearing that and being upset because I am past foundation classes and therefore would not be able to have her as a professor.

Well, the point of my story is that she sent me an email today, stating that she reads my college blog, Class Time, that she enjoys my writing, and that she thinks it would be a good idea if I entered an essay contest. That made my day right away.

The mere fact that someone like her took time out to read something I wrote was amazing. If she likes my writing, it has to have SOMETHING. Now, I just have to suck it up and move ahead with all I write.

and it was good.

2008-10-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

I baptized my first person today.

It was my room mate Carissa. God moved quickly in her. I was looking at dates and numbers and I realized that her baptism was exactly 4 months after Jesus Christ saved my life. He grabbed my hear on 26 June 2008, and four months later on 26 October 2008, I was standing in that same pool, baptizing my friend Carissa, my sister in Christ.

I told her how God was here for her no matter what. He is her best friend. He wants to know everybody personally. I told her that even if she wanted to talk about cheese, God would want to talk with her about that. God wants to know everything. Absolutely everything. I let her know that God already knew what she wanted to say, she just had to say it to him. If she can't find the words, God knows what she means.

God loves everybody. I know that. I have gone off on a conversation with Christ about a lot of things. I have fallen to my knees in the rain asking, pleading with God, "why why why" Why are you making me go through this. I told him, I cried out, "you say you do everything for a reason. I am not always allowed to know the reason, but could you please just tell me. I can't see why you are doing this." Just know, he has a reason for everything. EVERY SINGLE THING!

Baptizing Carissa was one of the high lights of my life. I was nervous, and she was nervous, but in that pool it was just her and I and God. I hope I served God well for her. I hope it was a good baptism. She is now a new creation. We are now four months apart in age. I was saved the 26 she was baptized the 26. After her baptism she said she felt like a little baby. I know what she means. I feel like a toddler. I am so new and fresh. I make mistakes, we all do, but i am learning how to walk.

I don't know how to feel

2008-10-25T15:04:00.002-07:00

We {Carissa, Tory, Doug, and I} were driving home from Bardstown last night and suddenly up ahead in the road we saw an accident. Tory said, "Drive slower so we can see what happened." Doug didn't really drive slower but as we passed Carissa, Tory and I all screamed "That's Nick's truck!" Freaked me out. I just thought, "He better not be dead." Doug broke out his phone instantly and tried to call Nick. I would have been ahead of him, but I don't have his number. Doug pulled the Jeep over. When Nick didn't answer Doug called Matt, Nick's twin brother. Matt said that, yeah, that was Nick's car we saw, he was in an accident, his truck flipped twice after he hydroplaned, but that he was okay. Relief.

I was upset. Doug asked me if I was okay. I guess they thought I was going to cry because I had covered up my eyes. I was just in deep thought... I'll stick with that. I had been with him a lot that day. I was in his truck with him. Grant it we were just driving across campus, but still. I had seen him right before he went to class at dinner. I don't know what to think. I never thought I would see something like that. I mean, he was fine, everything was fine, but still... you never know who or when.... bad things happen. We aren't even that close, Banjo and I, but still it bothered me more than I feel I am allowed to be bothered by it.

I saw him today. He had a class and I was in the Hamilton building when his class came out for break. He said his truck is totalled. He is getting a new one. That'll make him happy. Still, I really just wanted to give him a hug. I held back. I mean, we aren't that good of friends, and that action may likely have freaked him out, but I mean he is alive, and he looks just the same. Sounds just the same. He said he was more "pissed off" than anything. About his truck that is... if only if only. Still, living in Kentucky, the accident you see on the road is likely to be someone you know.

Follow you

2008-10-25T15:04:00.001-07:00

I want to follow this blog, but it won't let me... lame. http://indyhumes.blogspot.com/

I didn't misspell any of these words

2008-10-23T19:16:00.000-07:00

I like myself today.

Often, actually.

I need to keep my Jesus' advice in mind. "He who is without sin can cast the first stone." I judge far too often. This is human nature.

2008-10-22T17:35:00.000-07:00

The other day someone offered me $20 to write a five page paper for them. I turned them down. Today if found out the someone I know was paid the same amount to write a ten page research paper for person in my history class. I will be so mad if that person gets a better grade than me. Do I have moral responsibility for this? Am I supposed to tell someone? I tried to tell my friend that this is not a good idea. The girl isn't getting something out of it. She is doing it because the girl wont be able to play. That right there is the reason why academic people dislike some of the benefits sports people get.

I can't judge her though. Let he who is with out sin cast the first stone. It is still frustrating. I don't like it when things like this happen.

I guess I am over it, but it still frustrates me.

I would not live long.

2008-10-22T09:02:00.001-07:00

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Taggggggg

2008-10-21T10:20:00.001-07:00

I was tagged by my cousin. She is one of my few readers. I know two other people get on here when I link on facebook, but other that that..., but I will see what I can muster up for this whole tagging thing.

The rules:
1. Link to your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
3. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by including links to their blogs.
4. Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blogs.

Here we go.

1) I hate being sticky or kind of wet. Many of you know that if I get something sticky on me I freak out. I also do not like being in sprinkles of rain, because then I am just damp. I would rather be soaking wet or dry. I think that goes back to the sticky thing, because damp and sticky are similar. Before prom in 2006, Tammy was fixing Sonia's hair. he hairspray was covering her hands. I made a gross face about it. After that, Tammy proceeded to wipe her sticky hands down my arms. I was screaming and running for a towel. They thought I was joking. Now that they are aware of my truthful distaste for being touched by this sticky mess they touch me often.

2) I absolutely love learning new things. This is why I am getting a Liberal Arts Degree. I have to take many different classes in many different areas of study. If I could live my life being a life long student I would. I think I will get that out of being a librarian though. I am a person who believes you should do what you love.God will take care of you. Go for your dreams. Your heart is where God tugs.

3) I believe that the guy I am going to marry would want me to be faithful to him for life. Just because I haven't necessarily met him yet, doesn't mean I can't think about him when I make decisions. The life I am living now is shaping me to be the person I will be whenever I do find him. I want to be proud of my past. From this moment on.

4) I am so proud to be an American it is unreal. I was reading a book about Abraham Lincoln's assassination this morning and I cried in the moment when he died. I rarely cry. I love America. She isn't perfect, but I am proud of her. I think everybody should vote. What a privilege. In some countries, many people are not allowed to vote, or voting doesn't take place. I memorized the preamble because I am proud of what it says. I think that a lot of people who fight over the constitution should take a gander at the preamble before deciding on factors. "Form a more perfect union"...."establish justice"....."ensure domestic tranquility" ...." provide for the common defense"..... "promote the general welfare" ....."secure the blessings of liberty for ourselves and our posterity" Don't forget these points.

5) I love looking up pictures on Flickr of pregnant women because I think they are beautiful. I also realize that pregnant women sometimes feel like crap and they don't want strangers or even family walking up and touching their stomach, so I never ask. If they want me to feel their kid kick the crap out of their bladder, they will let me know. Either way, they are beautiful.

6) I dream of one day having 50 library cards. I want to be a librarian and I want to be in libraries. Currently I have three ish. I have a PPLD Library Card, a Library Card for Springfield Public Library, and I can get books out of my school library.

7) Even though I just met him, my History professor, Dr. Wallace, is one of my favorite people in the world.

Sara Pfeiffer...My fancy Cousin
Shenanigans

Post Secret
Will-I-am

I don't read any other blogs... if you would like me to read yours, well I could start, just suggest it to me.

Baptism

2008-10-20T19:29:00.000-07:00

I am going to be baptizing someone on Sunday.

I never dreamed that I would be involved in a baptism in this way.

I was always so "bad" that God had to save me. I never dreamed he would use me to save someone else. What an honor.

This Lady is amamazing

2008-10-20T10:17:00.000-07:00

I could never do this... unless I could, but boy oh boy was she excited about it.

Thank you Sara!

2008-10-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

My cousin sit me a link to this SITE
For this I must thank her. How could I forget Matthew's message? We spoke of it just a few months ago in Bible Study. I must remember what matters in my life! Thank you, Sara. I appreciate it.

Ephesians

2008-10-20T07:28:00.000-07:00

I spent all yesterday evening in the student center with God.

It was amazing.

He had me reading Ephesians.

What a wonderful book Paul has written for us.

Essence joined me for a while. I was watching Discovery Health. That was exciting. For I saw a woman post alligator attack. I also found that the twins mother did not kill one of her twins.

I am learning and growing so much lately. My spirituality is so over joyous. I love it.

Libraries

2008-10-19T11:05:00.001-07:00

A friend of mine, Aaron, and I drove another friend of ours, William, home to Dayton for fall break. On the way though, the guys took me to the Central library in Lexington. You see, a few weeks ago when we were in Lexington Aaron tried to take me to the library to see the Pendulum in the library (not going to lie I also wanted to smell the library). I was so excited, but we were literally five minutes late. Once we finally found parking we made it to the front doors at 5:05. Well on Saturday the library closes at 5:oo. I haven't been in a public library in so long. I was enjoying going through the rows. That library is beautiful. It has a show room with artwork. Four floors of books. A pendulum that keeps time that reaches 5 stories. It is amazing. I love libraries. I do I do I doo ooo. I have a life goal of having 50 library cards. At current I have two. If I make it back to that library though I will want one from there as well.

Hairy

2008-10-19T06:05:00.000-07:00

If I were to pick the number one thing about myself I was self conscious about it would be my hair. I have never liked my hair. It really, now, is the only thing I get frustrated over. The rest of me is pretty great. I have bad skin, but that comes partially with age, so I am okay with it.

As you may have noticed, I placed many pictures of myself on the side of this blog. I was looking at each of them deciding which I liked the best. I found that the common area for pictures that i like had to do with my hair. I like my hair after i have straightened and curled it. This process does not take long. I only worry that it takes me to far away from its natural state.

This brings up my other problem. I have never been a huge fan of my black side. I blame it for my hair. I never looked like my family in that respect. I was the nappy headed kid who had to put grease in her hair. Not like my cousins, not like my friends, not like my mom. Even my sister is more closely related to our white half. My hair is so curly naturally that I have to "tame" it after it gets wet. My sister can let it dry naturally and not have a "fro". For hating this I sometimes feel guilty because people do come up to me and mention how much they like it. Grant it they are usually black and they say my hair is just better than theirs. We live in a white world with Black hair. If you notice... no black people in our world who are at all famous or known for beauty leave their hair natural. Tyra Banks puts in weave. Beyonce wears weave. If not weave, then a relaxer. How often I am told to just relax my hair. I would rather relax myself to liking myself with the hair God gave me. I want to feel pretty, while still having my natural, unchemicalized, hair. I just don't know how.

A lot of this goes back to a post secret I may post here for you. About white guys thinking black girls are pretty. Usually the white guys who like black girls, in my encounters, are "gangsters", or they act more like a stereotypical black guy. Which isn't exactly what I am trying to get at. It is hard to explain. Race is still hard to get over in this world. Especially when you don't fit in with your family. You are supposed to fit in with your family, and I think that is important. Which is why sometimes I wonder about families who adopt other cultures. (I am not against interracial. Just usually when that happens, both parents, and thus both families are around. In my case half of that walked away.) So that you can relate to them and you can comfort each other. Asian people can speak of those difficulties together, blacks, whites, Irish, Polish, Korean, and etc. etc. It just was always strange... it is right now hard to explain. Not exactly a concern. Just a thought to put out there for the world to see.

Ephesians 4:29

2008-10-18T20:20:00.000-07:00

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"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." ~Ephesians 4:29

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I have made a decision to stop cussing. I think words are just words until a stigma is applied to them, but I know that i use these words to either "show off", or because now i am "allowed". For the pre-stated reasons, I am trying to cut out all use of them. I have a better vocabulary than that. If I have to have a practical reason then I see it as a challenge to build my vocabulary, but in all reality, I don't think that my grammar glorifies God. That is my goal. To glorify God in all that I do. The person I want to bring into my life would not want to have a person like me cussing every other word. {Not that I do that now, but you possibly understand what I am getting at} I want to be the best example of Christ's love and glory that I can be. I am not saying in any way that I believe that all of you should stop cussing. This is definitely a PERSONAL decision. I love you all. Cussers and noncussers. I also see that the way I am using these words in inappropriate. Ungodly. Unacceptable for myself. Nothing to do with anyone but ME and GOD!

Find A Reason To Be Happy! I have one now!

2008-10-18T16:26:00.000-07:00

I made this picture last summer. Right after I made the picture within the picture. I was having a hard time. I just wanted to get out of Kentucky. I wanted to go home to Colorado. I was so upset and I would look at that picture every day and try to think of reasons I was happy. It wasn't exactly hard. I just wanted something to remind me of all I DID have to be thankful for.

I was with a family who loved me and I took them for granted.

I thought I was better off alone.

I thought I knew EVERYTHING!

I was the only person who knew what was right for me.

I was wrong.

Life is so different now that I have a real reason to be happy. I am going to spend eternity in heaven with so many wonderful people. I have a chance now to let everyone I know know about what a wonderful feeling I have each day as I open my heart to Jesus. Sometimes I try and put myself a head of him, and when he wriggles back inside and stands as my strong tall father i am reminded of how better off I am listening to his words. Hearing his guidance above my "all knowing" falsities. When I do have bad days I have to give it all up to him. It is out of my hands. Maybe I am meant to go in a different direction. Now, I am back on track. I gave it up to him. It was in his hands and now i am okay. If another challenge comes my way I will have my best friend by my side. My Lord. My Love. My Savior. I finally have a father who only wants the best for me. I can lay in his lap and tell him all my secrets. {Even though he already knows it all...!}I love you Jesus. I am trying my hardest to make you proud. I will fall short daily, but you know where my heart is. In your name... I ask you send all my friends to heaven with me. I know I am not perfect yet. Won't be until I am with you. I wish for them to all be with me. I pray you soften their hearts. Please, soften their hearts!

I can be that too.

2008-10-17T10:36:00.000-07:00

A guy at my school walks into a room and commands respect. I knew that the first time I saw him. He looked a tad bit like Harry Potter, but I could just tell there was something different about him. Looking at him you can tell that he cares about other people. He is the kind of guy you feel bad using curse words in front of. The kind of guy you want to apologise for you friends to. The kind of guy who's attitude is one that glorifies God. I want people to be able to look at me and know that I put my trust in Him. I want people to fear saying "bad" things in front of me. I want people to know that I don't stand for that.

I am currently trying to drop the amount of sexual humor used amongst me and my friends. It is funny, but not at all pleasant. Humans are not objects. I don't want to be the stumbling block for my friends. I want to be modest. I want to make God proud. I am on some sort of path.

God is writing my Love story

2008-10-17T09:35:00.000-07:00

I have been reading this book recently. It was given to me by a friend. She is lovely.

Anyway, the book really got me thinking. I mean, God has chosen a person for me. He can make anything happen. I do think He put one person on this Earth for me. All you nay-sayers may say that there are way too many people in the world for one particular person to be the RIGHT person, but I do not agree.

Why would the greatest of the great not be able to make something as simple as crossing two persons paths happen? I know He can, and when He is ready, He will drop the right person in front of me. If I miss him for some reason, he will drop him again. If he misses me He will cross our paths again. As long as I am running at full force into my father's arms I will be able to accept and be fully prepared for that particular relationship. I am excited for it. I can wait. This will make it just that much more beautiful.

God, I love you!

2008-10-16T16:15:00.000-07:00

..................................... How can you look at the world and not believe in God. The more and more i learn about the universe the more I believe in the one true God. How can such things be without something bigger than humans creating it all. The world is too perfect. It was perfect before us. Every thing in the universe lines up. Someone was in charge of all of that. Keep telling me that the world is complex. The science is perfect... you are just reiterating my point.

Okay, Murder me

2008-10-15T09:12:00.000-07:00

My cousin is right.
I went to the financial aid office today to figure out what I am going to have to do.
My sister went with me.

They looked at our finances, and they think that once her aid comes in she will be fine, but they don't know about me. I am going to have to take out additional loans. That's fine, but the deadline is coming up.

I am starting to love my school, but if i find a cheaper one i may be forced to switch.
I know my mom wants that, because ever since i mentioned it she seems to really want to force the issue, but i want the best education, not the cheapest. The other school is actually really good though. No telling if I will even get in. Tuition is free, you just have to get in. Which is HARD. I am going to send in an application, but i will hate leaving behind what I finally have. Friends who accept me as I am. Allow me to study obsessively, but still have fun. I've never really had that and I feel myself holding on. I love my room mate and my other 3 constant friends. I have a good group of people I speak with. My professors are teaching me more than I have ever learned, and i am plugged in at my church. Would I want to leave that over money? What amazing things could I gain though? A lot i know. I could gain a lot. I could lose a lot.

These problems shouldn't exist.

College? Call it quits...

2008-10-14T15:00:00.000-07:00

GRRRR....
College is so not worth it.
I can't afford it, and I am trying so hard. I have good grades, adn I want to treat this as my job, but if my parents can't afford it, or don't want to help me I am going to have to drop out. I am no longer over reacting, and I can't deal with this on my own. I am going to have to drop out before I even get started. Where there is a will there is a way. Maybe this is one of the things I am going to have to put in God's hands. He has the answers, and I don't know what to do...